#LearningtoArtAgain

I like corners. They feel safe and comfortable for me. This is my small haven within my realm of organized mess, and I’m really proud and in love with every bits and pieces on it, even the shreds of paper, even the layers of dust manifested.

I wish I can undo my life and restart my childhood so I can shape my view more into arts. I will try to take some photos, to get the feeling of it.

Log 2 – 05252017

Develop a passion for learning.

If you do, you never cease to grow.

Source

I grew up in an environment that doesn’t really encourage kids to do whatever they like or to be whatever they want. Growing up, I thought it was normal, but then came high school and I was devastated.

At that time, I had this in my head: ‘why can’t I do what I want to do?’

Was it because my family isn’t well-off to buy me stuffs required? Not really. I could easily ask my father to buy me things I want (and I’m pretty sure my family is stable) so that wasn’t the case.

Was it because my family are religious so they became picky and judgemental to activities I tend to like? Pretty much, I guess. I liked this thing, they didn’t approve. I like that thing, they still didn’t approve as those things opposed to what our belief teaches.

But mostly it was just laziness. The justification of permissible things in my family’s small world made me lazy to explore the world beyond that. And sadly, my parents still don’t realize this. They still think that way. Even now. Whenever I want to try new things, they wouldn’t say anything, but at the end of the day they would ask what is it for in a very judging way.

I want to do things.

I want to do things and nothing and no one can’t stop me.

I want to try gardening. For my sanity.

Can’t wait to do this next month.

If you have a garden and a library, you have everything you need.

Source

Bad lunch is bad. It triggered me too much.

What’s worse than bad lunch is shitty snobbish cafe. But yea, that happened.

Log 1 – 05242017

I decided to try journaling. I hope it can help me express what I think and what I feel better.

And I feel better, really. I can laugh at what I wrote and I even got some knowledge about feline. This is good.

I wish to continue this at least once a week. Fingers crossed!

Guess How Much I Love You in the Summer: A Guide to Express Your Love without Being Awkward and Cheesy

April adalah bulan yang cukup penting untuk saya. Dalam bulan ini ada sebuah peristiwa penting bagi saya, yaitu ulang tahun ibu saya. Saya juga lahir di bulan April, tapi ulang tahun ibu saya tentu lebih penting mengingat ibu saya berulang tahun tepat sehari setelah hari gajian (yay for payday).

Apakah saya mencintai ibu saya? Jawabannya, sudah pasti iya. Dahulu saya pikir punya ibu secerewet ibu saya itu menyebalkan sekali. Segala hal yang dikatakan Ibu rasanya berat betul untuk didengarkan dan dilaksanakan. Tapi semenjak saya lulus kuliah saya merasa cara saya memandang ibu saya sudah berbeda. Lebih kompleks. Campur aduk antara positif dan negatif.

Tapi saya cinta ibu saya. Dengan segala kelebihan dan kekurangannya.

Sayangnya, sulit sekali mengatakan rasa cinta dan sayang kita kepada orang lain. Kalau bisa jangan sampai orang tersebut yang mendengarnya bergidik karena terlalu asing didengar sehingga malah menjadi risih.

Buku ini bisa jadi rujukan kita bagaimana cara mengungkapkan perasaan kita kepada orang lain dengan puitis dan lembut. Elegan tanpa terlalu kelihatan berusaha susah payah.

Guess How Much I Love You in the Summer berkisah tentang Little Nutbrown Hare dan Big Nutbrown Hare dalam mengungkapkan rasa sayang mereka satu sama lain.

On a summer’s day there are colours everywhere. 

“Which blue do you like best?” asked Little Nutbrown Hare.

Big Nutbrown Hare didn’t know–there were so many lovely blues.

“I think … maybe the sky,” he said.

Mereka saling bertanya tentang warna-warna lain di alam terbuka yang terhampar di hadapan mereka; mana yang lebih mereka sukai–

Hijau…

Merah…

Kuning…

Then Little Nutbrown Hare began to smile and smile.

He looked at Big Nutbrown Hare and said, “Which brown do you like best?”

And Big Nutbrown Hare smiled too.

There were many many lovely browns, but one was the best of all…

Guess How Much I Love You in the Summer adalah satu bagian terpisah dari seri buku Guess How Much I Love You. Didahului oleh kesuksesan Guess How Much I Love You, Sam McBratney kemudian menulis empat judul berikutnya yaitu seri In the Spring, In the Summer, In the Autumn, dan In the Winter. Kelima buku tersebut diilustrasikan oleh Anita Jeram. Paduan kalimat-kalimat sederhana yang dalam dari McBratney dan ilustrasi lembut milik Jeram membuat seri buku layak mendapat tempat di hati pembacanya.
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  • This is my first post (and my first ever post in any other platform) using Bahasa Indonesia. I don’t really like writing in my mother language but yeah, it just needs to be done sometimes.
  • This post is made to celebrate my mom’s birthday tomorrow on 26th.
  • This post is also made as a kick-off to my special post called On My Desk which will be about things I do on my messy desk. Expect dark, blurred pictures and of course, messy desk.
  • I usually read and draw on my desk. Naturally, what I post in On My Desk would be about books and arts. Other than that, I will let you know.

Yay for Passion

I believe in passion far more than what people called love.

What is love anyway?

It’s a mere chemical reaction in your brain.

But, what is passion?
When you like something for life.

Me, an intellectual: Which one lasts longer?

Happy Meal

Truth be told, I’m no skinny girl. In fact, I have pear-shaped body that makes me still looks as big as ever even though I have lost some weight. But what’s been bugging me for the past week was the fact that my co-worker suddenly cried during a lunch break. She told me that she ordered this diet package (low carb, less salt, high fat) because she thought her current weight is unacceptable. Yet, she was bored and stressed out as she couldn’t eat what she likes. Her mood was uncontrollable (the combination of strict diet + massive work load + thesis wouldn’t end well, I assume). She was devastated as she ate her lunch beside me.

This issue had been around since I was in middle school. Funnily enough, Mam and my older sister never think this is a big deal (I guess I’m lucky to be born around people who see you past your physical appearance–unfortunately that’s not the case with my dad). It was always my cousins, my aunts, and/or my friends who think a lot about their appearance. It didn’t influence me, per se, but rather I think it’s a pity to be chained on this irrational norm that tells girls to ‘be slim to be pretty’.

When people tell me to lose weight, I always always retort back: “What is the benefit of me losing weight to you?” And if they answer it’s for my own good then I can just brush it off. Like, no shit, what do you know about my body constitution. Also, to be fair, 99% of people who had told me this, would answer that kind of response.

So I told my co-worker that you don’t need diet to be happy.

Me: “Are you gonna be happy if you lost some weight?”

Co-worker: “…. I don’t know. I mean I don’t feel good right now. My body is stiff and I can feel my health is slowly deteriorating. Now I could catch a cold just because I go home late.”

Me: “Then do exercise.”

CW: “I don’t really have time for that with my current crazy schedule.”

Me: “Hmm. True. But you could always do some repetitions of crunches and push-ups and maybe stretch in the morning.”

CW: “Does it count as exercising?”

I dunno. God, I honestly don’t know. I’m no physician or nutrician or PT. I don’t know if it’s gonna work on her or not.

But by the end of the lunch break, I can summarize some points in my mind:

  1. You can never be healthy with only diet
  2. As human are, not all diet created equal, therefore what works for someone doesn’t mean will work for you.
  3. Light exercise everyday helps a lot. It helps yout muscle to be ready for a harder exercise twice a week.
  4. Eat normal meal with menus you want 3 times a day. Just try not to have snack. But if you really want to have one, go take it. Make sure it’s not a high sugar snack because it would undo all your hard work in exercise.

I hope girls can think wisely for their bodies. Please be healthy and most importantly, be happy.

Picture source is from my Instagram account

Don’t fool April

Hi!

This is basically just a dumpster if I might call it. Without any special content whatsoever, I just need some space to talk (to myself) about things I like (mostly) and things I don’t like (hopefully not as much as previous one).

I’m Kay (that’s just my initial tbh) and I like arts, illustrations, children’s books (books with LOTS of illustration make me feel blessed).

This is not April Fool joke. Actually, I’ve been thinking of starting a blog quite a long time ago but I think to start it at the beginning of April would be a nice thing since it’s spring time, there’s a lot of fruits available in my local market, the wind isn’t as cold as before, and Japanese kids’ are currently starting their first day of school year (I’m not Japanese).

I’m planning to post more about books (with illustration one, not the BOOK one) and arts (if possible), the rest would be rants and thoughts, though.

 

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